Child Sexual Abuse - MMC (Past)
The MMC has a history of being sexually abused as a child that he discloses to the FMC. Chapter 29, 31
Child Sexual Abuse
No gratuitous details of the abuse, but the first chapter from the MMC's perspective has the MMC kill a child abuser in the act and rescue the victims. Chapter 2
Dubcon
Both characters are threatened and ordered to have sex in public while others watch. FMC is threatened by the other men, and MMC has to claim her to save her from them. MMC does not know FMC is a virgin, but she gives verbal consent. Chapter 9, 10
Mental Health & Trauma - FMC
FMC has trauma from neglect and being raised in a cult, and experiences anxiety, intrusive thoughts, depression, and impulsivity. Various Chapters
Mental Health & Trauma - MMC
MMC has trauma from childhood sexual abuse, involuntary psych ward admission, gaslighting, and physical abuse by his father. He experiences paranoia, disassociation, PTSD flashbacks, possible hallucinations, anger issues, and memory disorders around his sexual experiences. Various Chapters
Rough sex
Hair pulling, light spanking, deep penetration. She wraps her long hair around his neck to stay close to him. Chapter 10, 32, 33, 34, 56
Sexual abuse
At a mafia party there are several women under the influence of drugs or alcohol that are stripping for the men and consent is murky.Chapter 5
Threats
Sexual violence against the FMC (never realized). Various Chapters
Virgin
It’s her first time, but she pretends like it isn’t, only telling him after the fact. Chapter 10, 11
Body shaming and objectification
A lot of discussion about conforming to masculine and feminine ideals, about him not being muscular enough, and insults about her small breast size, including likening her to a boy. There's further objectification of breast augmentation and large butts. Various Chapters
Homophobia and Transphobia
Slurs directed at the main character (faggot, homo, fairy) and suggestions of repressed sexuality within the Mafia. Various Chapters
Disordered eating
MMC has trouble eating, especially when being watched, at the beginning of the book. It's detailed that he's lost a lot of weight due to guilt after the dubcon scene, and after the time skip, it's mentioned that he's gained a little weight through therapy and a healthy relationship. Various Chapters
Use of the morning after pill
After the dubcon scene, MMC provides FMC the morning after pill, and she takes it. She has cramping in the days after and is cared for. Chapter 12
Sexual difficulties
He has trouble getting aroused in one scene because of a medication side effect paired with his guilt over taking her virginity and they work around that. Chapter 31, 32
Body Horror & Torture
Torture using a cattle prod, gore including guts, mutilation, splatter, cutting off a man's face and turning him into a pile of pulp. Chapter 2, 46, 51, 52
Other Violence
Stabbing / knife violence / gun violence / explosions. Other violence including fist fights, breaking bones, kidnapping including rope restraints, tasers. Various Chapters
Mass Murder of Bad Guys
A building is blown up, but it's specified that all innocents have been evacuated first. Chapter 52, 53
Alcohol and drug use
Main characters drink socially, but side characters are portrayed at times as drunk or under the influence of drugs, consensually or not. There is smoking and brief mentions of problematic drinking. Various Chapters
Kinky Sex as Therapy
FMC enjoys cockwarming by sitting on his erection while doing non-sexual things, keeping him inside her after he's finished, as well as sucking him while he's not hard as an oral fixation to soothe her anxiety. Chapter 32, 33, 34, 35, 55, 56
Childhood Trauma
Along with the Major Triggers, there are memories of childhood neglect, emotional abuse, physical abuse, sexual abuse. MMC has a childhood history of being used in occult experiments, including being tattooed, and gaslit into believing his sister never existed. FMC was raised in a patriarchal religious extremist group, and was emotionally neglected. She ran away from home to escape an arranged child marriage to her half brother. Sex in the cult the FMC escaped was a part of ritual and she was exposed to watching others have sex as something natural. Various Chapters
Child Sex Abuse & Grooming
FMC's mother was 15 and groomed by a 35 year old cult leader, and then isolated from her family. Mentioned as a reality, something that interlinks with poverty, and always talked about as the worst kind of crime against innocence. Various Chapters
Maternal death in childbirth
Brief mention that the patriarchal cult that FMC escaped approved of a woman dying while giving birth to a boy. Various Chapters
Patriarchal Violence
A theme explored throughout, and how the mafia and the religious cult both exploit women and masculinity to attain power and control. Various Chapters
Religious Trauma
FMC was raised in a cult that uses religion and God to control and manipulate. The cult is fictional and inspired by many other cults but no particular one. Various Chapters
Ableism
Discussion of paranoia and psychosis, MMC was involuntarily committed to a psych ward in his youth. Various Chapters
Arson and Fire
Brief mention. Epilogue
Dehumanization of Unhoused People
MMC is tasked with killing an unhoused person, and told that there would be no victims. He refuses. Chapters 21, 23
Blackmail
MMC pays off the FMC so she won't tell anyone about the bomb he was planting. MMC is blackmailing an associate by hiding his crimes from the police. Various Chapters
Captivity & Stalking
MMC takes FMC to his house; she can leave, but she's under surveillance and he's tracking her at all times. Various Chapters
Cult Involvement
FMC is fleeing a religious extremist cult. Various Chapters
Death of a family member
FMC's grandmother died prior to the start of the book and she grieves her. Various Chapters
Disappearance / Murder of a loved one
MMC's sister was murdered almost 20 years ago, but he wasn't able to grieve or mourn because his parents denied he ever had a sister. Various Chapters
Electrocution - Taser / Cattle Prod
MMC uses a cattle prod to torture a child rapist to death. FMC uses a taser on the man she was supposed to marry from the cult. Chapters 2, 24
Adoption / Foster Care / Child Services
Mentioned in various points. Various Chapters
Organized Crime
MMC infiltrates the Bratva, and operates exclusively within the world of organized crime, including on the dark web. Entire Book
Financial Crimes
MMC creates a scam cryptocoin and sets up a pyramid scheme targetting underworld criminals. Entire Book
Age Gap
FMC is 19, MMC is 30. There is no DD/LG vibes but it is an issue for both of them to work through. Entire Book
